My project goal
This project was very personal to me, and the thinking skill we were given was perspective. I wanted to make people feel the emotion Amy went through when they listen to the song. It was hard at first, but once I got myself into the right mindset I finally understood Amy's life. In the song, I sang the lyrics from her point of view, and tried to recreate her voice as best as I could. I listened to her songs on repeat only so my goal could be to make people feel how she felt at her worst time.
ELA: I can't go on
I did some research on Amy Winehouse and how drugs effected the last part of her life. After I got her perspective, I wrote a song about how she was feeling before she passed away, and it portrays the life that was surrounding her. I then recorded the song and put another voice on top of the original track. This added a new layer of perspective to the song, and said things that were going on in her head. I also used chords from her song "Back to Black".
I cant go on/my heart is hurtin
I numb the pain/I close the curtain
You scream my name/but I cant hear it
For I am done/with feeling like a misfit
You use my fame for all your fortune
I am your blood/whats more important?
So take my hand/or take my life away
Ive been through so much hurt/ I dont think I can stay
I cant go on/my heart is hurtin
I numb the pain/I close the curtain
You scream my name/but I cant hear it
For I am done/with feeling like a misfit
You wanna make me lose my mind/every single time/you say I’m not enough
I need my fix my bag of tricks im slowly crying ive been dying/to come home
Im following in your footsteps/I need my family and a home
But ive been feinding for a change/but then you hear me say
I cant go on/my heart is hurtin
I numb the pain/I close the curtain
You scream my name/but I cant hear it
For I am done/with feeling like a misfit
So should I live or die
Is it worth it to try
Theres no more time for me
I just want to be free
I numb the pain/I close the curtain
You scream my name/but I cant hear it
For I am done/with feeling like a misfit
You use my fame for all your fortune
I am your blood/whats more important?
So take my hand/or take my life away
Ive been through so much hurt/ I dont think I can stay
I cant go on/my heart is hurtin
I numb the pain/I close the curtain
You scream my name/but I cant hear it
For I am done/with feeling like a misfit
You wanna make me lose my mind/every single time/you say I’m not enough
I need my fix my bag of tricks im slowly crying ive been dying/to come home
Im following in your footsteps/I need my family and a home
But ive been feinding for a change/but then you hear me say
I cant go on/my heart is hurtin
I numb the pain/I close the curtain
You scream my name/but I cant hear it
For I am done/with feeling like a misfit
So should I live or die
Is it worth it to try
Theres no more time for me
I just want to be free
HIstory
I took a look into the rehab part of the American society and also found out the personal side of Amy's story. Amy died of alcohol poisoning after being sober for two weeks. I had to use my knowledge of emotion and her quotes to understand what happened in her mind. The stigma of drugs was what held her back from all of her success. In the worst of her times, Amy couldn't perform without drugs. 2007 was the peak of her addiction, even though it had gone on for a while, but she still couldn't overcome her issue through rehab. I think it was important for me to research how America saw these drugs in general, before seeing how they reacted to Amy's usage. Both were negative stigmas, but it seemed to be the "cover of Amy's book" because she was a musical influencer.
art
For my art portion I made a song with my guitar and edited the recordings. I used a lot of perspective in this project because it helped me put more feeling into the song. In order to understand Amy's emotions, I researched her entire life, beginning to end. Her story was exciting, lucky and somewhat tragic towards the end. Throughout her adult years, she struggled with many drug addictions, but ended up passing away due to alcohol poisoning. This song was the best way I could put so much emotion into my thoughts of her. I hope you see the message, and enjoy "I Can't Go On".